Mark's Poems

of course

yep.....i love you

i love you too and i have an idea. i'll tell you tomorrow.

why wont you tell me now

You're poems are sooo good!

thanks onyx

The Painful Side Of True

Sitting down by the riverside,
on the bank watchin the tide,
along came two ladies,
and they had with them a beautiful baby.

She wasn't very old, just learning to walk,
she prolly didnt even know how to talk,
she was the beautifulest thing Ive ever seen,
her hair so brown,
her eyes so green.

As I watched her lookin so sweet,
she just stood smiling back at me.

As i made small talk,
mostly about the river,
the mom called to the baby,
and it gave me a shiver.

When the mom said her name,
my heart stopped,
my stomach dropped.

I couldnt breathe,
it was like a knife to the heart,
she said the word Bella,
and that was the worst part.

I turned away so nobody would see,
all the hurt and all the pain,
that was inside me.

Could this be a sign to know she's still there,
For i do know she is everywhere.

She's in my dreams,
in my mind,
I could never forget,
and just leave her behind.

She's in my head,
I know she's with us,
I feel her with me,
everywhere I go.

What do you do,
with a heart so blue,
where do you go,
when the worlds so cold,
where can you turn,
when this feeling tears at you and burns.

Things happen with the seasons,
why did she go without reasons,
I feel so guilty,
I feel so weak,
she just went within a blink,
I dont know what to think.

You have one shot to live this life,
You have one chance,
Dont second guess,
All you can do, is do your best.

I tried and I failed,
I can only blame myself,
For what happened to you,
the loss of a child, our child,
leaves me so blue.

I wish you didnt have to go,
All I want is you to hold,
I thought I had it all,
a good life, great friends, the perfect woman.

I have all that, but I want more,
I want it all,
I want my life back,
I want my family back,
I have some things,
but you I lack.

For now I must go,
But Bella I want you to know,
No matter how far we might be,
I still have you here with me,
I have your picture in my mind,
I will never leave you behind.

Rest now my darling,
so much is left to do,
And remember that daddy
will always love you.

Mark Adcock
05- 07- 09

aww baby *hugs* I miss her too...so much...and you will have your family back i swear that to you. Bella will always be with us, we both know that. This was a beautiful poem, it made me cry...I love you so much....but you cant blame yourself, it couldnt be your fault in anyway. Accidents happen baby, yes i hate it and i want my baby back but we cant change what happened....you would have been such a great father and you will be when we have another little baby....

i know i shouldnt blame myself but i cant help to blame myself.....

we both wouldve made great parents and i cant wait to have another little baby well many babies with you.....

I love you sooo much!!!!

why baby?

awws baby i cant wait either....


I love you so much more!!

b/c its my fault you got pregnant in the first place if i wouldve been more i cant think of the word right now it wouldve never happened and then 2 if i didnt make you think that i didnt want her then you wouldnt have tried to kill her without me finding out about it.....i dont really wanna talk about it.....

Good.....

No i love you sooooooooooo much more

talk to me about it on a pm....

talk to you about what?

nothing.

get back on yahoo and talk to me

not now. i just need to think.

plz get back on and talk to me or im goin to bed

plz stop spamming. Personal conversations are to be taken up on pm or chat

im not spamming

your posting things that doesnt have to do with the topic that is spamming dear.

w/e im sorry

its okay love.

ok